For instance...I'm usually pretty good at following directions. So - unless my instincts are tweaked to high alert and red flags go up - I may not question what appears to be obvious and normal.
Case in point: When the online registration for a San Diego based hiking group said to type my full name - I was a good little do-bee and followed the directions. Now my full name is on my internet profile. Der!
I'm usually more careful about stuff like that - but again - a dork moment. I tried to edit my information - and of course - was unable to remove my last name.
Since then - it has occurred to me that my full name - including my maiden name - is on my facebook profile.
So - I'm done fretting about that one.
There are plenty of other things to be anxious about. I know because I've been the Anxiety Queen for way too long. I look forward to abdicating my crown.
Then comes the trifecta - that 'perfect storm' - when the initial loss creates unexpected residual loss and then add a helping of collateral damage loss. Loss begets loss - and it all comes crashing together and compounds in Richter scale proportions. Enter Fear.
All this leads to the realization that joining the hiking group is a bit of a break-out moment for me.
It may seem like a no-brainer....but I've been functioning without a brain for a while. My heart was my guide and it needs a break from being broken.
It's up to me to re-engage myself in life and take the initiative to change my stars. I'll trust again.
So I will "Hit the Trail"
...with baby steps.
...it's okay to be a Dork.
Looks like fun! Love your big smile!
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