Healing...

I've been resisting writing this entry as it feels like I've slid backwards a bit.  I am fear-filled today and I guess I don't really want others to know.  But it's the reality of my world right now and I have to face it.

There had been a lot to do to get moved from Minnesota to California - so the emotions had to be put aside to get the real job done.   

My focus of late has been to get unpacked and make the new digs feel like my home.  It will take some time but it's getting closer.  I still need to hang some things on the walls.  I've always had a hard time committing to putting a nail hole in a wall.  Seems so permanent.  I have to remind myself of the reality called spackling compound.

I know I'm still healing and coming to grips with my life decisions and what my future holds.  I'm frightened about the dismal statistics about the unemployment rate.  The anxiety gets overwhelming at times.

I have to trust that things will work out okay.