It's crazy to me how my emotional state can change - seemingly in a heartbeat. I understand that ups & downs are part of the carousel that is life...but sometimes it bites!
I know that part of it is that I'm tired from the training at my new job. When my energy level is down - it's easier to get sad. It's been a while since I've had to "think and retain" in office-mode. I'm not complaining - but I'm also grateful for R&R at the end of the day.
Since January I've been doing some part-time Companion Care with a wonderful couple here in California - they are the Best! I love them dearly and will miss not being able to spend as much time with them now that I have a "big-girl" job.
Under-employment had its benefits and it was great to have some respite time from the real world - but it was also unrealistic. It surely is a double-edged sword.
I want to feel calm, content & confident...
and comfortable in my own skin
...like this guy.
I know what your feeling. When I started this job - I could not wait until I knew what the heck I was doing. Now 4+ years later, (and the time flew)it's great. One day at a time!
ReplyDeleteLove ya,
Becki
Thanks Becki! It's nice to get some validation that I'm not totally a whiny little weakling! The age factor has also made me realize that I don't quite have the stamina as the early days. Thanks again. Hope all goes well for you.
ReplyDeleteLove ya back!
Holly